Yes, I would date Steven Tyler

oops, sorry. That was meant as a response for when they ask me " can I ask you a question?". Being normal is just not an option for me.

This week has been full of concerns and worries, thankfully today Sunday {or rather yesterday since is 2:30am} it rained buckets. A perfect excuse to get my wellies on and go get a newspaper with hubs- a girl needs her coupons ya' know. I just love going out in the rain, walking with the hubs. We left the kiddos at home because the little guy has the croups but is doing soooo much better already, so we didn't want to get him sick again.

Anyways, hubs got hi EKG done this week and again it was abnormal. Not only that but the Dr. said that if he didn't know his medical history he would think he had something major (myocarditis) and a lot of pain {which the hubs has not} so a Nuclear EKG is needed along with another batch of test. SIGH. The Cardiologist said that even though the hubs is young, we have to be sure of whats going on, that he has patients younger than him that had a bypass already.

I think the worst part is that the Hubs doesn't see the problem here. He actually got mad at me because he feels like I'm going over board. Let's review, shall we?: Thyroid condition, weight condition, possible surgery, Abnormal EKG, test, test, and more test. NOPE I don't think I am going overboard.

dammed Ricky Martin is hot!
Sorry, ADD kicked as I saw him on a tv commercial. *cough, cough* let's get back.
Between that and me feeling like I'm failing with my new healthy habits, is has been not such a great week. I have lots 5lbs and I feel I should be doing better, I know I'm still eating tons of bread, rice and stuff that I shouldn't. of course the Hubs thinks is ok and that I'm doing good, which I know I am not. I have to get back on being motivate and seeing the goal ahead.

And then my Sis made these:



Nutella cupcakes! PLEASE KILL ME NOW.

She is bring in some here to my oldest and even though I want to try them, I feel like I shouldn't because is going to throw my entire week off. My goal this week is to get the 4-5 days of exercise, drink even more water, cut the bread intake in half. I KNOW I CAN!!! if only I could get some sleep I'll be golden.

Oh, and while browsing around I found this idea thru Small place Style blog, we have a shelf in Ali's bedroom so we wanted to add more since he is going to college but didn't know how to add, and VOILA- look at this. This is perfect for his room and I can't wait to try it. A trip to IKEA is in our future :)


what have you been up to?

Over & out

For Lori

Today I have a really long post about a dear friend. I know it's Christmas time and is supposed to be all happy and cheery, and all about decorating and the fluff but I keep thinking about her a lot lately and I think she should deserve a post just for her.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the way we judge people. People around us that we think they are so nice and really deep down they aren't. People that seem friendly but they are not. Or the worst kind of judgement: people that we JUDGE for they way they look/act and that are really kind people, nice people, sick people, suffering people. People that Just want to feel loved, cared, or even just talked to.

I believe everyone has a story.

If you pay attention and listen you’ll find that everyone has something to say, has some story
to tell. Sometimes the story is funny or silly; sometimes is sad, and others are tragic. This one is both sad and tragic to me.

I was a bad friend. I failed to notice the desperation on a friend’s actions.

I met Lori while working as a Design Consultant. She was super hyper and full of energy.
She was in her early 40’s. No kids, never been married.

She talked a lot always :) . She was very particular if not odd. She dressed in suits but wore Cowboy boots. She love the southwestern lifestyle but sold the European Country like there was no tomorrow. She drank a lot of Black Cherry Soda and ice Coffee but hated regular coffee. She had a dog that she loved more than life itself. She refused to have sex with a guy she really liked
‘cause she had only shave one of her legs (that's for another story). Odd I tell you. But she was funny. She was like a used car salesperson in a good way. Very colorful.

When I left the job we kept in contact and went out to eat a few times. She acted really weird, but nothing crazy enough for me to be concerned. She fought with the waiter (in a more than loud voice) at a Italian Restaurant 'cause she wanted butter not Olive Oil for her bread, when they brought the butter she didn't even touch it and proceeded to use the oil.

Her voice was louder than normal in our conversations after that. Then the other friend we had in common also told me of a similar situation at the movie theater. She was acting so weird. Of course we just though she was really sad about her father’s death. She had lost her father that
year and had to see him died. She was all alone at that time (her parents where Divorced). Even though we talked all the time suddenly she stopped answering my calls, she never returned them - no emails either. She was always responsible and all of the sudden
she was missing work a lot. She was taking cabs and claimed her car was in the shop. People where calling her asking for money at the work place. We all though she had money issues and just was to embarrassed to tell us. We didn't get why her car got reposessed. It got so bad with her missing work so many times that they had to let her go. Our mutual friend went by her home (BTW-At that time I was already living in another state) after several attempts to contact her by phone and email.

When she saw Lori she said that she looked like she hadn’t had a bath in days and certainly smelled liked it too. That was so strange. We kept trying to call and email her with no avail. I have to say that a one point I gave up ad thought if that was the way she wanted it so be it. I though she was just acting up asking for attention. I though she was just being stupid. We though that she was acting crazy and though she was the bad friend to us.

Then, on December 11, 2008 I received this email from our mutual friend:

“Hi Patricia, I have some bad news about Lori. She passed away from a brain tumor on November 28th. Below is the link to her obituary. I feel horrible. All that time she was behaving erratically was because of the tumor. Her mother had called me at Williams Sonoma right before Thanksgiving to tell me that Lori was sick and needed surgery. I planned to visit her after the holiday weekend since C's mom was in town, but it was too late. Sorry to be the bearer of such sad news, but I thought you would want to know.

T”

Lori passed away.

No words can ever express the sadness that I felt- the guilt.
How could us- her friends- not see this?

How could we judge her like we did?

This taught me that we have to learn to listen better, to be better people, to see the others and listen to them without judgment. We have to try harder at being better friends, neighbors, family. We have to LISTEN to the clues around us and never ever give up on people. We have to be more compassionate and not judge the nerd at work, the person that
dresses a little different, the one that may seem odd to us.

I have to be better.

I owe that much to Lori. So here is to you odd balls of the world. To the Princess the acts out to impress other people, to the rebel that just wants someone to ask what is wrong, to the one that reads the book alone at lunch and not because is really interesting.

And here is to the wonderful fulfilling life that God has blessed me to have everyday. To come home to this, no matter what kind of day I have- is a blessing:

Over & Out

I'm in love!!!

I'm.in.love

I found the most awesome blogg for chandeliers: Chandelier Magic Beach House

Not only do they create the most beautiful pieces ever but her home is the kind of place you never ever want to leave. You need to check her out. here is some of their work:

I want this BAAAAAAAAD

Ahhhhh, I'm having dreams of a beautiful chandelier, I guess I better work extra hard to get the house first and THEN think of the Decor. Hey, a girl can dream!!! I already told the hubs I want to cover the sofa's in white (yeah, I know I have a baby, blah, blah, blah). And I'm sooooooooo going to paint to my heart's content.

Over & Out

P.S: Hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving!!! Hubs and I are going to be alone since Sis is going to visit her hubs family for the next 3 days. Boston Market it is!

Finally that day is gone!

So thank the good that Friday was.finally.over.
There are some days that I'm in complete amazement and
recognition of how blessed we are. We truly, honestly are.

Then comes a day like this past Friday that all you want to do
is crawl into a corner, turn into a ball, and cry so hard until
you finally fall asleep. YEAP.that.was.yesterday.

I'm not going to go into every little detail 'cause that’s just
so annoying when people complain and whine about life,
and work, and how it's not fair and blah, blah, blah.
Suffices to say that it was a bad day, everything was just chaos and
I honestly just wanted to give up. I mean you try and you
try and then you get punch by life and are left
with this hallow empty space in the pit of your stomach.
DARN.DARN.DARN

I really need to get better on my Faith skills. I usually can see the light
At the end of the tunnel, I do…really. I always pray and think of all those other times when I though life was so bad and somehow everything turn out ok.

Of course, DH came to rescue and made it all better, like he always does. He keeps things in perspective and don’t get the emotional side of things cloud the big picture, our vision, our family. Reminding me that I have to keep the faith, that things always have a way of changing for the better…and that no matter what by the end of the day, I.am.NOT.alone.in.this.

I have to remind myself when I see those dark clouds hovering about that there is always going to be someone to dry my tears, to make a joke and make me laugh about the silliness of it all, someone that’s willing to make a fool of himself if it means that It’ll make me happy. I am truly blessed ‘cause I married my best friend and the best man in the whole wide world.

“You complete…ME”

I.freakin.love.you!!!!