What are you praying for?

Blessed to have a place to put a tree

I'm sorry if talking about my issues has become a theme here, but I must say that I have share some of my thoughts with others and seeing how many people are in our shoes and how many are suffering and having struggles I figure I share some insight.

It is so sad that most of the time when we are in trouble is when we remember to pray, to seek God. To hope that there is someone out there listening to us, someone who cares, but most of all, someone who can do something.

It breaks my heart to see how many people are strugling out there, even worst than we are (take for example my ill brother); but what it's even more sad is the amount of people who do not care about others, at all.

Dr. Phil had a show today about how many families go hungry in America (1 of 6 americans have struggle with putting food on the table. Dr. Phil was asking to make donations. Some of the comments said this:

"If people that had jobs before that lost them saved and stopped spending over their means maybe they would have had something to fall back on. Also, there are alot of people that aren't working because they feel like some jobs are below them. I don't feel sorry for any of them."

"How about giving birth control to the poor so they stop having children they can't feed!!" (because God forbid someone poor is blessed with children)

"Raising money to provide meals is a waste of money. "

These are the nice ones. They call people receiving help Lazy, bums, that people really are not that bad off. It truly breaks my heart. How can we be so judgmental, so hard, so cold. How can we not feel for others around us? how can we not try to help when we can?

But my post is not about who we no longer see what is in front of us, how we don't want to get involve, how we ignore the poor and the homeless, the sad, the lonely and the ones hurting, no...is not about that.

I want to talk about Praying.
In the last week I have spoken to people suffering, hurting, people wanting a better life, a better future, etc.

So I ask you: What do you Pray for?

Do you pray for a house?
Do you pray for a car?
Do you pray for that raise at work?
Do you pray for more money?
Do you pray to meet your better half, get married?
do you pray for a day off?
Do you pray for health?
Are you making plans for the future when you have the bigger house, your dream car, the higher paying job, more cash?

I will make a humble suggestion.

The next time you pray, ask God to give you faith above all.
Faith to know that you have what is meant for you, there is a reason for all. Pray to have joy for the things you already have, that you enjoy each day for the things it brings.

Pray for the faith to believe in your heart that you are not alone, that he knows what is best for you, that today things may seem unfair, that the road seems long and hard, but that
one day you will look back and know everything has a reason to be.
Ask him to put in your soul the believe that you are blessed TODAY no matter what your situation is.


Blessed to have a messy house, with a play tent in the middle of the living room, for having kids that enrich my days.


I have been praying so hard and I know in my heart that no matter what, we are so blessed. That life is wonderful and beautiful, that I am never alone. I hope that if you are sad, problems have been troubling you, please know that YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

Over & out

The day I wanted to dig a hole and crawl in it... or Hard day

I hope for arguments sakes that some of you have seen the movie "Fun with Dick & Jane" because the image above would make sense. Being in that place of desperation, thinking what can you sell to make things better, wanting to dig a whole and get in it.

That was us last night...ok, we didn't dig a hole since we rent and I don't think it would be a good idea...but I thought about it.

One does not know how hard a day can be until you have someone knocking on your door to turn off your electricity.

Then you talk them to give you an hour to call some places and while you are at it you get a call that the car is going to get repossessed because they won't wait 'till Friday to get the payment.

Then receive a due notice from the rent for Thursday.

All this within a matter of an hour.

I don't know how I kept it together but I did. The night was hard since our stove is electric, so no cooked meal for us. You have no idea how hard it is to keep telling a 2yr old that the tv and light are not working, but he did ok afterwards.

We end up looking something like this+ teenage boy - dog + a cat.

We are two people who have 4 yrs degree each on us, you would never picture- scratch that- I would have never thought we would be here but here we are indeed.

This is not a post so you can pitty me, or like one person once, to sent me an email on all the things I'm doing wrong because is not. We are working super hard to move forward, looking for jobs, working overtime, clipping coupons, etc.

Both my Birthday and Anniversary came and went and we didn't do anything because we know now is not the time. And is ok 'cause that is not a priority to us right now, our family is.

I want you to read this and know how blessed you are, we all are.

When you wake up and don't want to go to work know how lucky you are to have one.

To have a vehicle to drive instead of taking the bus.

When you come home and are tired and don't want to cook, know how blessed you are to have a stove, to have food, to have the option of cooking or not.

Last night was HARD. I am not going to deny that, nor the panic attack I suffered this morning. But I kept praying and saying IT WILL BE OK. {how many times can one say hard in a post?}

I kept thinking of the little boy from Camden, NJ that I saw on a documentary and how he slept outside with his little brother and his Mom and how all he wanted was a place to sleep (and curtains).

I keep thinking of those kids victims of violence that have lost their parents and now are responsible for their siblings. I though of how much worst this could truly be. And this time when I prayed I was thankful for what I have, for my boys, for my Hubs, for my family and my bed.

For I am not religious at all but I have great faith that God knows that this challenge we can endure and that he will guide us all the way.

Prayers get answer and the power is back on right now. and I'm grateful and hopeful that tomorrow would be a much better day and that love can conquer all. (and no, someone didn't hand us money, actually none of our family or friends know that thesis happening to us)

I leave you with what I wish is a message of hope, that no matter how much you are hurting, suffering, feeling sad or alone, thinking this was a bad day, remember your day can always get worse but YOU have the power to look thru all the mess and see that IT WILL get better, that there is beauty out there, there is a bright future.

I'm sending a prayer for you out there. :) be happy!

Over & out

P.S from my last post: I was not going to get mad if you didn't guess correctly people! LOL

I'm Dominican!