Monday, October 25, 2010
I'm a Palm tree
I read somewhere on the net this week that spoke to me. Don't ask me where because I suffer from mom-nesia. I googled it and I gather that it was perhaps an analogy that was taken from a message from Joel Osteen:
Not a direct quote-The Oak, being a strong tree is not meant to withhold a storm.
A palm Tree can handle hurricane force winds by bending in the wind and when it is bending it's roots get stronger so when the storm is over it is stronger than when the storm began. When the storm is over the palm tree stands upright stronger than ever ready for the next storm...
I've discovered that I am indeed a palm tree, how is that for a meant to be since the homeland is full of them? :)
I have seen some storms that I wish you don't, and yet victorious I stand. I am not defeated, instead, I stay strong each time to become who I was meant to be. Every time I have a new obstacle I remember the last one, that one that you often wonder how the heck you are going to get out off (helluuu-pregnant at 16 anyone?) and I tell myself: you SO can do this. You can cry, you can be sad, mad, upset, angry and hurt but YOU WILL go forward. ALWAYS.
It helps a great deal to have someone by you that gets this too. We are palm trees. I see my life now and I wonder "what's next" and it comes down to that it really does not matter. It will be what I should be. I'll try harder. I'll have faith. I'll try not to make mistakes, but heck- I only look perfect...I'm human. (I kid- the human part of course).
above- Me dancing on my Bday celebration (aka same day I was layoff, and yes, that was a fried cheesecake)
Right now, somehow, we are making it. I have to say it feels reeeeeeally good to be home. To play with the little guy and have long conversations with the big guy. I have to laugh because right now my oldest is playing in his computer "Don't stop believing" by coincidence :) I sure hope HE never stops.
Today was so beautiful for me and I did so many mundane things, like clean the fridge. I am so proud of it I should take a picture. We had the maintenance people come and service the heat/air and check the fire alarms. The little guy was like "uhmmmm hiiiiiiiiii" so adorable, and then started mumbling in his own language if they could please rescue him from this insane asylum. Then he forgot about them and tackle the cat.
I'm rambling. Carry on.
ahhhh, I love fall. I truly do. (even though the last 2 fall seasons have been awful to us). This one...well not so bad if you ignore that I was layoff. I'm starting to BELIEVE they did me a favor. Family should always go first. I am happy today. Happy to be home. To make a home. To make home made burgers for dinner. Happy to have implemented a two week meal plan. Happy that I can go food shopping tomorrow with no worries, then take the little one to play. I'm Happy and it feels good :)
How about you?
Over & out
P.S- does anyone else is waiting for the last minute to get Halloween costumes? I think I'll go as Snooky!
(first pic from the homeland, 2 photos before last by Daniel E.)